"There
are seasons that ask questions and seasons that answer."
"When
things change inside you, things change around you."
What will I give to hold you, see you, hear you call my
name?
As I reflect on the past 16 months, much has happened. I
can not help to wonder what you experience as you see what is happening here on
earth. What would you want to say to us?
As a child, the thought of our yearly Summer vacations
over Christmas, the festive season, was the inspiration to give your best the
last quarter of the year. Also known as the silly season. But for many of us,
undoubtfully the season and time to reflect on our lives during the past
year.
Our precious son is entering a new season of his life,
finalizing his school education. Indeed our greatest blessing. I can recall
plus minus 17 years ago when we had to run some errands, and a noticeable
elderly gentleman walked up to me while our son was sleeping in his stroller.
He looked at my precious baby with a soft smile and made the following comment:
"He is very content, isn't he?"
According to the Cambridge Dictionary, the meaning of
content are as follows: "Pleased with your situation and not hoping for
change or improvement." In a sense itself, content is a powerful word.
Reflecting on the last 16 months, analysing everything that has happened around
us and the world we live in, I am starting to think that new-born babies and
angels in heaven are the most content souls.
A well known saying, that time heals all wounds. I prefer
to disagree with that, because the truth is, every morning one wakes up only to
realize that one of your children has passed away. Each one of us has lost
someone different.
As time went by, it became more difficult to open my
daughter's cupboards, facing her earthly belongings. One desperately tries to
keep every memory of what she had done, touching everything with her
fingerprints on, the smell of her, how organized she was. I realized that I
needed to force myself to rearrange my children's belongings I kept since the
early days.
The date was the weekend of 6, 7, and 8th November 2020.
On Wednesday the 4th, a Dragonfly greeted me as I helped out at our reception
desk at work, the first thing that morning. During the following day, I crossed
paths with indeed 2 Dragonflies on my way to my storeroom at work. It came as
no surprise to me when yet another Dragonfly appeared in my kitchen Friday
evening November the 6th.
With determination yet being uncertain of my own
emotions, I took on the task. I have set a date when I will commence, and it
was time to begin. Each storage crate I opened had a different impact on me,
reliving all the precious memories. It was as clear as daylight in my thoughts.
Sunday evening, I stepped out of the area, drained by
being confronted with all the confusing emotions, only to be embraced by the
most beautiful sunset.
No one on earth can give us answers. But if you look
around, signs can turn up from anywhere. To be given even just for that moment,
a part of our loved one. You see and experience everything differently. Embrace
and nurture that moment.
Because
if you believe, signs turn up everywhere.
Remember
the true meaning of Christmas and enjoy time with your loved ones.
Kind
regards,
Liesel